Christmas

Christmas was great! This was Chase's first Christmas and our first Christmas as a complete family! It was just awesome. Christmas Eve night I put the kids into their new Christmas jammies and then Emma left a cookie and Christmas milk (that's what she calls Egg Nog) for Santa and a carrot for Rudolf. She was just so excited! She wanted some Christmas milk before bed and we had poured the last of it for Santa so Matt gave her that. Well, come morning Emma woke up and went directly to the plate. She noticed that everything was gone, then she said, "Santa took our cup." LOL!! When Matt gave her that Christmas milk he put the cup in the sink, well Emma noticed that and she thought he took our cup. It was just way too funny! So Matt told her that he probably just put it in the sink where it belonged. Everything went great. Emma opened her presents and also helped Chased. It was great!! I'm blessed.

Oh and other news. Chase has his first tooth poking thru, I just noticed it today. It isn't all the way thru, but it is there and you can feel it.

Sleep...who needs it??

I DO!! I have gotten up 3 times with Chase and then the 4th time, at 5:45am, he decided to stay up. Ugh!! I'm use to on the weekends still getting up with him in the night, but when he gets up for good, Matt gets up and and I sleep in some. Matt had to work all weekend, so I didn't get that this weekend. I am beat!

Let's see, updates.......Emma has started to show some, I repeat some, interest in the potty again. She has used it a few times this past week. Hopefully we are gonna get somewhere this time. In less than a month she will be 3, I just look at her in amazement. I can't believe she is my daughter. I feel like I am still in high school or just freshly out, but this is my 9th year out of high school. Holy flippin cow, 9 years. In just a little over 3 years I will hit the big 3-0. Age doesn't really bother me, seriously, it's just a number. It just blows my mind how fast time has flown by. It feels like just yesterday I was in high school with no "real" concerns. Now I am married with 2 kids and bills out the butt. I'm not complaining, I love my life, but man oh man where did the time go. Anyways, back to updating.

This weekend we have actually done a lot. Friday night we went and go out tree. Yes, in the very cold evening we were venturing out to get a tree. It was freezing and ended up with me and the kids in the van while Matt got the tree, it was just too cold. Then Saturday, mom and I went to a craft show. It was fun, but boy was it packed. Mom and I used to go every Saturday shopping, but now we hardly ever get out together. So, Saturday was a lot of fun. I got some mom and me time, just like we use to. Then once Matt got home he got around and we took the kids to his work Christmas party that they have for the kids. They had Santa, cookie decorating, crafts, tattoos, blow up toys and presents. Emma loved it, it was a lot of fun. She cried when she had to get out of the big blow up toys that she was jumping in. For presents, she got a care bear and Chase got a thing that he can play with during tummy time. They both love it. Speaking of tummy time, I put Chase on his tummy in front of that toy and he started bringing his knees up and trying to push himself closer to the toy. Can you believe it, he is trying to scoot around already. I'm telling ya, time is flying.

Then on came Sunday, me and the kids did absolutely nothing. Matt was at work and we hibernated. I watched a movie that was on tv called Flirting with Forty. It was a really good movie, I actually watched it twice (I have it on my DVR). Then when Matt got off of work we finally decorated our tree, which isn't completely done yet. lol We are slackers. lol Emma didn't want to put her princess decorations on the tree, b/c she wants to play with them. lol

So now it is Monday morning, I'm tired and both of my kids are up and ready to go. My nephews (who I babysit) are asleep on the couch. This is probably gonna be a long and tiring day. Tonight we have Monday night supper, so that means I don't have to cook tonight. Hopefully all the kids will take a nap after lunch and then I can catch a few zzz's. Anyways, I guess I'll try to get motivated and start my day.

Nevermind...

Remember my blog about contributing, well I do contribute. I contribute to my family in many ways every day. Maybe I don't financially, but I do by taking care of them and loving them. Matt doesn't want me to work and I'm happy right here. I told my mom that and she was so happy. She told me how I was a great mom, how my kids are turning out so well. She said Emma is just so smart and loving and Chase will sure to follow the same suit. I knew I wasn't a bad mom, but it's great to hear someone say I'm a great mom. My kids need me here with them. Heck, my nephews need me (I babysit them). My nephew Jr told me that he likes coming here and he don't like being much of anywhere but at home. Grant it there are times when I just wanna scream and pull my hair out, but what stay at home mom doesn't? I love my job and I'm staying right where I am. My place is at home, at home being a mother and a wife and I'm fine with that. I'm blessed, truly blessed!

Thankful

I am so thankful and since it is Thanksgiving time I thought I would post about all the things I am thankful for.

I am thankful for my family. My husband is a great, strong man. He provides everything we need and then some. He lets me stay home to take care of our kids. He loves me, for me.

I am thankful for my kids. They are great kids. I have been so blessed to have them. They keep me smiling everyday.

I am thankful for my Mom. She is the strongest, most beautiful woman I know. She is who I want to be, but don't think I will ever make it. She has been there for me thru everything! I seriously don't know what I would ever do without her.

I am thankful for my Dad. He is such a strong man with such wisdom. He is so smart and always has great advise. He puts things back in perspective when I get crazy. He can always make me see the great things in the crappy situations.

I am thankful for my brothers have become more like friends over the last few years. We have grown past all the childish fighting and have really truly became friends. We can talk and joke and just have fun. You know it is great when you go to hang up from a phone conversation and he says "love ya sis". That just melts my heart.

I am thankful for my nieces and nephews are great little kids. They are all growing up so fast. They are too cute.

I am thankful for my friends, my true friends. In the last few months I have found out who they are. They have been great and they have supported me. We may not have the time to always get together and talk, but we know that the other one will always be there.

I am thankful to God. He has provided for me, even when I am not as faithful as I should be. Even tho I can backslide, He is still there. I think He has brought one of my friends back in my life to help me to appreciate Him more. She is a strong Christian woman and isn't afraid to speak about God. She gives Him all the credit for everything in her life and I admire her for her faith. Even when most people would give up, she gives thanks to God and trusts that He will pull her thru it. God is so awesome. He has just given to me a great life and I am so thankful for that.

I am sure there are a lot more things I am thankful for, but those are just at the top of the list. I would love to keep going, but the list would be so long and I have 3 kids tearing apart my house. lol

Happy Thanksgiving tomorrow!! Make sure you think about the things you are thankful for and yes that includes all the great food!! lol

Contributing...

Ok, so I have been getting this nagging feeling lately that I need to contribute to my family financially. I know that I contribute a lot by staying at home, but I just feel I need to help get ourselves ahead financially. You know, get rid of our debt, get a real nice savings account going and maybe even a family vacation every summer. I really don't want to be away from my kids fulltime, but parttime is a possibility. The only thing is, I would like to have a parttime job that pays well, duh who doesn't want a well paying job if they are gonna work. When I worked at Pierre's before I had Chase, I got paid well, it was only 2 1/2 days a week and I can say I truely enjoyed it. The only thing is, they changed the position into a fulltime position with all kinds of miles to travel, hence why I don't work there anymore. So I guess I am in a personal debate with myself. Do I stay at home with my kids fulltime (Matt doesn't mind it at all) or do I try to get a parttime job and contribute financially and still have quite a bit of time with my kids? Hmmm, I hate it when I get these nagging, somewhat guilty feelings going on. I know that I have the best job in the world, but I just feel I need to contribute financially too. Ugh, I know I just keep saying the same thing over and over again, but it's because I'm really tossed up in the air about it all. UGH!!

Can you believe it!!

Okay, so my dad called me last night to let me know what the doctor had to say about grandpa. Well, come to find out the nurse that had told my grandma and grandpa how serious it was over exaggerated!! She made it sound like it was so super serious and that it shouldn't be taken lightly at all. Well, the doctor talked to them and said it isn't as serious as she made it sound and he doesn't go back to the doctor till after the first of the year to have the test done again. He gave him some meds to take and he should be fine. I personnally think that nurse should be fired!!! I mean, she caused my grandma, grandpa and the rest of us a lot of heart ache thinking that grandpa was in grave danger. Ok, maybe not fired, but come on that is horrible to put people thru stuff like that!! I don't know what she was thinking, but she gave us all a horrible scare!! On the bright side, grandpa is going to be fine, atleast for now. The doctor don't seem all that concerned so neither will we. Thank you for all the prayers!!

4 Months

So, I took Chase yesterday to his 4 month appt. He is weighing in at a whooping 17lbs and is 26 1/4" long!! Man oh man is my baby not such a baby anymore!! He is laughing, cooing and smiling like crazy. He has been rolling from his belly to back since 3 months. He is just so stinking cute and so happy most of the time. He is def a mommy's boy!! We are gonna be starting cereal today which should be fun!! I've given it to him once, but this gonna become a daily thing. Then onto veggies and then fruits. Wow, he is just growing up so fast. He is our last and the last grandbaby for both sides and he just isn't staying little very long. He is just growing up over night!! It is sad to think he is the last, but then again it isn't. I know that my family is complete and we are so happy the way we are!!

Prayers Needed!

So for quite some time now my grandpa hasn't really been doing all that great. He has been losing a lot of weight (he weighs less than me and he is a little taller). His sugar has been all over the place. They finally started running some tests. Well one of the tests went down thru his throat. The results showed that he doesn't have cancer but whatever it is (they haven't given us a name yet) is very very very serious. I guess they really stressed big time to grandma how serious it is. So, it looks like they need to do surgery, if the heart doctor (since he has had a quadruple bipass) says he can make it. We are suppose to find out more today. He is 78 and I mean he just looks like a bag of bones. I will post an update once we hear from the doctor today, but please keep him in your prayers.

Family Pics

Obama is President....CRAP!

Well, don't this just suck! I totally didn't want Obama to be President. There goes our country down the tubes even more. Then, Issue 6 didn't pass either! Maybe people don't agree with gambling, but just think of all the jobs it would have created, not only in the casino, but all the restaurants and hotels and stores they would have build around it. Are people against bringing jobs to our state? Man, this just sucks all the way around!!

Fisher-Price

Okay, so this just proves how low people can go. Fisher-Price has a doll out called Little Mommy Cuddle and Coo. Well it coos and laughs and then it says "Islam is the light". How freakin nuts is that!!!! This is America right?? This isn't a Islamic nation or anything right?? Then why in the heck are their toys on our American shelves that says something supporting another country? Well I can tell you this, I won't be buying Fisher-Price!! What in the heck is happening to our country??

I couldn't get the video onto my blog, but go to youtube.com and type in Little Mommy cuddle and coo. Several videos will come up.

My Pay Check!

I might not get a pay check that I can go and cash at a bank, but I have one better than that. My pay check is looking in my sparkling blue eyed baby boy when he smiling a smile from ear to ear. Or when Emma comes up and gives me a big hug and kiss and says "I love you Mommy". Or getting to see Chase roll over for the first time. Or waking up every morning to the best job on earth. Plus it is great, I can wear my PJs all day if I want, lol. My pay check is made out to Mommy and is signed by Emma and Chase. How can it get any better than that?

Chunky Monkey!!

His costume finally came in. I wish he could sit by himself so you could see the hat better, maybe I will prop him up on the couch tomorrow. Isn't it just so cute!!

Progress!

So last night was great!! I put Chase down for the night at 8:30pm and he didn't wake up till 4:00am!! How awesome is that!! Then he didn't get back up till 8:00am. If I didn't have the boys to watch today I would have gotten a whole bunch of sleep, but that first stretch was great!!! Hopefully this will start happening for now on!! I'm seeing more sleep in my future!! lol

Trick or Treat smell my feet!

This past Sunday was our Trick or Treat, which I am pissed about. The president of our fire department decided to only give people a 4 day notice. Well, I had boughten costumes off of ebay for the kids. Well, luckily Emma's costume came in on Friday, but Chase's never made it. I didn't end up taking him anyway, b/c it was so windy and didn't want him to get sick again, but it would have been nice to have it in case I wanted to. So, I took Emma around for about an hour and she enjoyed it! She told everyone Trick or Trick and Thank you! She is such a polite child, at times. lol Anyways, Chase's costume should be here sometime this week. Weather permiting, we are having a halloween party for the kids this Saturday. So, he can wear it then. I will be sure to get pics, b/c he is gonna be such a cute little monkey. I picked a monkey since his nickname is Chunky Monkey. lol Emma just loved being a care bear!! She is so into care bears right now. She sleeps with them every night!! We asked her if she could be a different care bear and she said no, she wanted to be cheer bear! She is so much fun!!

It's getting quite old!!

So for the last couple of months I have been getting stomach aches and diarreha after I eat, night sweats and now lovely headaches, oh yea and mood swings galore! I asked my doc to check my thyroid and sugar. So, she did along with my red and white blood count. Well, it all came back fine. She hasn't said anything else about wanting to do any other tests. Well, there has to be something wrong!! This isn't normal, I wasn't like this before. If I go out, I don't eat for like 2-3 hours before we are suppose to leave. I had a girls night out and we went out to eat, big mistake!! Next time I will just watch them eat. It is so freakin old!! Even if I am at home, I don't like to eat b/c then I'm gonna have an upset stomach for the rest of the night. I have no clue what is wrong. When I put in my symptoms on the internet, you wanna know what comes up?? Menopause. Can you believe it?? I guess if I am going thru way early menopause it really isn't all that big of a deal, b/c we are done having kids so it's not like I'm wanting to get prego. The plus side to it all would be the fact that I won't have periods anymore. But who knows what is wrong, I guess I will be calling my doc today and once again try and figure out what in the heck is wrong with me!! I am so sick of it all!! People wonder why I am skinny, my mom thinks that I don't eat. Well, partly she is right. Sometimes I don't eat all meals, b/c I don't want to feel like crap, but why eat when it is just gonna come right out? I don't know. I'm just fed up!!

Can you believe I did it?

Yep folks!! I did it! I got my tat Friday night! Everyone thought I would chicken out, including me, but I didn't. I went with one of my friends and my cousin and her hubby. I may have went last, but I went! It didn't really hurt, there were a few tender parts, but it really wasn't bad at all. I could do it again, but I don't know if I will or not. This one is kinda big or atleast that is what everyone tells me. So, I might just keep it to one tat.

Cutest kids....

So, I'm their mom so I should totally think so. But who could think my kids aren't cute? lol Anyways, we took them tonight for their first official pics together. They turned out really good!!

Fun fun fun

Last night me and a couple friends went out to eat. You talk about a good time!! We carried on and were so loud. It was so much fun! I haven't laughed so hard in a while!! It was like being in high school again, but with more grown up topics. lol Back then we use to talk about boyfriends and school. Now it's husbands and kids. lol We had so much fun!! We are turning it into a monthly thing and we are so excited! We all look forward to getting out of the house for girl time and we enjoy it so much!! Next month we are shopping, I am so looking forward to that!!! Yeah, for girls night out!!!

Can't decide!!

Ok, so this Friday I am going to be getting my first tat!! I just have one problem. I can't decide which one to get. Which do you think?

To Great Friends!!

Ok, so in the loss of my "best" friend I have come to realize what GREAT friends I do have!! You have Lynne, who doesn't want credit but sent me those YUMMY cookies that absolutely brightened my day!! She is so down to earth and doesn't get all worked up when life isn't exactly going as she wants it. She just takes everything with stride and laughter and that is what is so great about her!! She is always able to find the silver lining and just have a good time and keep a smile on her face even when she doesn't feel like it. She has truly been like family. I remember several times being out at her house when her thousands (so it seems) of family members were out there for a famous family gathering and it was just like I was one of them. It was so much fun!! She is just a great person and if you ever meet her mom or had a chance to meet her dad you would know where she got it from!! They are really great too!! A very cool family and friend!!
Then there is Heather, we had lost contact for quite some time, but finally started talking again. We don't know what happened, but it doesn't really matter now. She is the one that I can go to whenever I need to let off steam about the crap that is making me so mad, b/c she is there too!! She has been there and most often enough is still there when I am. We are able to "talk" (which really we text most often) about anything. We love talking about the past, b/c it can be quite funny!! When we both had "serious" boyfriends in high school we all always went out together and talking about that now is just hilarious (neither one of us married that "serious" boyfriend and they were jerks!!). She is just on the same page and doesn't take anything personal.
These two are the ones that have been there for me. Grant it we don't see each other often at all, but we are there for each other. We all have families and know how hectic life can get. Even though we don't get to hang out, I know I can call on either of them and they would be there for me in a heartbeat and I hope they both know I would do the same for them!! I guess maybe I was just wrong where the title of "best" goes, these two really deserve that title. So, this is to my BEST friends that are always there for me and understands me!! Thank you!!!

Wow!

So, the other day I was visiting with a friend and a delivery person showed up with a bouquet of cookies. Well, they were for Matt wishing him a speedy recovery from his work. Then today I got a knock on the door. While walking to the door I saw yet another bouquet of cookies and was thinking man Matt is getting a lot of cookies. But wait!! She said delivery for Sarah Prine, that's me. I was shocked! I looked at the card and it did say my name and inside it said "Sorry you're having a rough week." How sweet is that? I have some really great friends!! The only thing is, I have no clue who sent them to me, no name was on the card. So, in case the person who sent the cookies to me is reading this, Thank You So Much!! You brightened my day and restored my faith in my friendships and in people!! Whoever you are, you are so thoughtful. Thank you!!!

Sick!!

Yep, I woke up today with a return to my cold!! Sore throat, runny nose and a cough. Not only do I have it, but so does Emma. Plus, Chase still has his. I have no idea how Matt avoids getting it when we are all sick. So, needless to say life at my house is laying around, taking medicine and using A LOT of tissues. Ugh!! I hate it when I'm sick and I hate it even more when my kids are sick!!! Hopefully it passes soon!!!

You just never know.

Okay, so I know practically ever post lately has mentioned my "best" friend. Well, this is really bothering, I just can't seem to get past it. How after 14 years can she just write me off like that? How could she even begin to think that I didn't want to be there? How can she say that I have let her down just like her family? What in the world?? 2 hours before her wedding yesterday I sent her a text telling her that I was sure she looked beautiful and to enjoy her day and then 1/2 an hour after the cermony started I texted her to say congrats. I have not heard anything from her and in a way didn't expect to. You just never know about anyone anymore. Someone who I held close to my heart and would have done anything for, just wrote me off like I am no one, like I mean nothing. What am I suppose to think of that? What am I suppose to do? I don't feel it is my place to go crawling back to her and beg for forgivness, b/c I don't feel I did anything wrong. I was needed at home. My husband and baby needed me. Shouldn't they come first? Well, they do and that is that. My family will always come first. Even as I loose this friendship other friendships have been reblossoming. Friends that I have lost contact with over the years. These girls are a lot more understand, they too have families of their own so they understand where my loyalty must lie. Where my duty goes to first.

Don't I just have the cutest kids!! Emma was being silly at the costume store we went too, she wanted that hat all the way until we went to leave and then decided she didn't. She just looked too cute. The one piece shorts outfit Chase has on is a 12mth outfit and the red shorts outfit I believe is a 6-9. Crazy crazy crazy!!

In better news. Chase is doing a lot better. He still has a cough and a nasty nose, but he is doing a lot better than he was on Friday. I am getting over my cold and not longer feel like pulling my head off from a huge headache. Matt is doing a little better, but is still in a lot of pain. His recovery is taking so much longer than what we expected. The doc made it seem like it wouldn't be too bad, but poor Matt is having a hard time. Emma is still crazy and wonderful Emma. She has only managed to get a little cough (knock on wood). Hopefully she stays away from all the crap going around!!

My house is a complete diaster zone!! I have been going thru clothes and putting aside clothes that are too little for the kids. Chase which won't be 3 months till the 16th, is already able to wear 6-9 month clothes and is practically out of his 3-6 month sleepers. Yes, you read right, 6-9 months at 2 months old!! He is so flippin long!!! I just can't believe it. I have so many clothes that were given to me, but he hasn't gotten to wear a lot of them, b/c he is growing so incredibly fast. I have come to the conclusion that my kids will be taller than me by kindergarten. lol

For Braden

Courtesy of Antigone.Directly from her site:October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day in the United States. More than 25,000 children are stillborn in the United States every year leaving mothers, entire families and communities devastated. Estimates of the rate of occurrence of stillbirth make it at least as common as autism.Stillbirth is not an intractable problem. Greater research would likely significantly reduce its incidence, but good research requires good data.H.R. 5979: Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act is under consideration by Congress. This proposed bill would standardize stillbirth investigation and diagnosis, thus providing more data for the needed research. Better research means fewer children born still.On October 15th, remember the thousands of unfinished children lost and the families who remain to grieve them. Honor them by taking action. Let's help pass H.R. 5979.Action Steps:Step 1. Use Your Blog to Enlist Others-Copy the contents of this entire post and publish it on your blog immediately.GOAL: Enlist 10 of your readers to spread the wordStep 2. Use Your E-mail to Enlist Others-E-mail 5 bloggers and ask them (nicely and in an unspammy way) to publish these action steps on their blog. Consider contacting celebrity bloggers, political bloggers, medical bloggers, or bloggers who are not part of your reading community.GOAL: Enlist 3 bloggers outside of your normal blog sphere to spread the word in other online communities.Step 3. Help Pass the Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act-By October 15th, publish a post on your blog supporting H.R. 5979 Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act. For maximum impact, title your post: "Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act."GOAL: 1,000,000 Google results on October 15th when that term is searched for. Currently, Google only returns 20,400 pages - most of which have nothing to do with the bill.

What a week!!

Well, the past week was horrible!! Matt's recovering isn't going all that great, but that isn't the worst of it all. Wednesday night Chase started coughing, so the next morning I called the doctors office to get him in. He had a double ear infection and a cold. Well, that night it just got worse. He started choking and gasping for air. So, back to the doctor I went. Well, she sent me to the ER. After 4 hours, 1 breathing treating, 2 x-rays and a poke on the foot we got sent home. He has broncitis (or however you spell it). I took him back to the doc today and he is doing better, but not over it. Then to put the icing on the cake, my best friend is mad at me b/c I'm not going to her wedding. I'm sorry, but I can't leave my sick child and laid up husband right now. I know it sucks, but she has to try to understand and she isn't. So, now after 14 years, I think I just lost my "best" friend. She said I have managed to let her down just like her family and I totally think that isn't fair. Well, like several people have told me, if she was a true friend then she would understand, it just sucks! Oh yeah and now I am sick. Life is just wonderful right now!! Atleast I have my family!!

Am I wrong???

I decided late last night that I would not be going to my best friends wedding that is 13 hours away. I would have to be gone atleast a day and a half. My husband just had surgery 2 days ago and isn't recovering very well. He is in a lot more pain that he had expected. Then today I took Chase to the doctor and he has a double ear infection and a cold, that was just icing to my cake. Once I heard that I def knew my place was at home to take care of my family. But now she is mad at me. She told me that the people that want to be there, will be there. I don't think that is fair to me. I have always been there for her and I want nothing more than to be there for her on her wedding day, but I have to put my family first. My family needs me, between being sick and recovering from surgery, they need me. Yes, she needs me too, but I just feel my place is at home. Am I wrong? Should I have gone? My mother-in-law was gonna stay with Matt and the kids, but I feel it is my place, especially since Chase is sick now. I feel horrible and I might have just lost a best friend of 14 years, but doesn't my loyalty need to be to my family first? Shouldn't she understand that? I mean, she has every right to be upset b/c it is her wedding and we are less than a week away from it, but this is my husband and child we are talking about. This really sucks! I really want her to have a beautiful wedding and I want her to be so happy, she deserves to be happy. I just wish I was there to witness it. I hate this!!!

This Sucks!!

Well, Matt made it thru surgery but with a little complication, which the doc said would make him more sore and take a little longer to recover. Then yesterday Emma hit the incision and I've gotta check to see if she ripped open a stitch. If so, I've gotta call the doc and see what I've gotta do about that.

My toilet is letting off a sewage smell. My brother is coming today after work and crawl under my house to see if he can see what is causing it. Hopefully nothing big, but I'll tell ya now we don't have the best of luck when it comes to stuff that is gonna cost money. I swear when the money flow is tight that is when everything happens that takes money.

Last night Chase started this thing when he would fall asleep he would gasp for air then gag on what only looks like clear fluids. I'm not sure what is happening and I'm gonna call the doc today and see what she says. Oh and now he has a cough too.

Then ever since I have had Chase I have had stomach issues. Practically everything I eat gives me diareha. I know, it's sick, but it's true. I told the doc and she said to keep a food journal so we can try to find a common denominator, but I'm just not seeing one. I don't know if it has anything to do with carbs. When I was prego, I had the extra insulin to help out with breaking down the carbs, now I don't. My sugar is fine, but could the carbs be causing the diareha?

My best friend is getting married this coming Tuesday and I am suppose to be leaving Sunday night to go to her wedding in the Outer Banks. Well, as much as I hate to do it, I'm gonna have to cancel on her. I really hate it and I have been going back and forth, but I just feel that my place is at home right now to take care of my family. Whenever I would say I am going I would get a real anxious feeling like something inside me is just saying I shouldn't go. After consulting a few people and just going with my gut, I will be breaking the news to her today. She is gonna be so upset and hopefully it doesn't ruin our friendship. I would hate to loose her as my best friend, so I hope she understands where I am coming from and that I need to take care of my family right now. I really hate being a "grown up" sometimes. Things were so much easier when I was a kid, I just didn't know it. Now I have bills to worry about, kids, a husband and all these adult decisions that just suck!!

On the up side, Emma is doing great!! She is really gravitating towards Matt right now. I think she feels like she needs to take care of him, but she is just being sweet.

Don't get me wrong, I love my life it just gets hectic at times!!

I hate being grumpy but...

it's bound to happen!! Ugh, today I am just so grouchy!! This coming Sunday night I leave for the Outer Banks and I can't wait!! I keep thinking about how much I'm gonna miss my family, but I need some "me" time. I need time for myself to relax and not worry about the day to day stuff. I'm just so worried that everything at home is gonna fall apart. My husband is gonna be recovering from surgery and my mother-in-law will be with him. Hopefully they will keep the house somewhat in order, maybe even do a good cleaning. lol The hardest thing is gonna be being away from Chase. He has only spent 1 night away and it wasn't even a full 24 hours. I'll miss the smiles he gives me, I just hope he greets me with a big one when I get back home. Leaving Emma isn't as bad, b/c we have been gone a weekend before and I know she will be fine. Chase is such a mommy's boy and is use to me doing pretty much everything for him. He gets babied to a certain degree with me, but he IS a baby.

Speaking of Chase. Last week we had his 2 month check-up. He weighed in at 13lbs 12oz and 24 1/4" long!!! My doc said he is the size of a 4 month old!! He isn't chunky but is just so long. He can fit some 6-9 month clothing!! Actually on Saturday I had a 12 month Ohio State onsie on him!! My baby isn't staying a baby!!! He got 3 shots! He did pretty good, but I hate having to see that. Right now he is smiling big smiles at ya and cooing. It is just the cutest thing. I love it when he can't see me and then I come into sight and he just smiles at me. He has the pretties blue eyes that just sparkle. Whenever someone else is holding him, he will look around for me. Sometimes he will even cry until he is able to see me. It's cute and sweet! He is my little Chunky Monkey!!

Oh my gosh..

One of my friends just posted a blog stating that she has lost herself and not sure who she is or what she enjoys. You know what, it got me to thinking. Who am I? I have always defined myself by my boyfriends and now my family. Don't get me wrong I love my family and love being a wife and mother, but who am I. Wow Lynne, ya really got me to thinking. I don't have anything that I am talented at, I don't have any hobbies. What am I gonna do with my time once I retire? I won't have kids to raise then, what will fill my days. The only thing I can say that I truly enjoy doing is shopping and garage saling, but it's not a hobby. When I am sitting at home and want to do something, I go out to my parents house. What's gonna happen when they are gone? Oh my gosh, I need to figure myself out. I need to get some hobbies.

Ok, now that I had that breakdown, I mise well update on what is going on in the world of Sarah. Well, Matt goes for surgery on the 30th. I'm not exactly sure how long he will be laid up. I was gonna have to cancel my trip to the Outer Banks for my best friend's wedding, but my wonderful husband volunteerly said that his mom could stay with him and the kids and I could still go. So, I leave the Sunday night before her wedding and fly back on that Wednesday. I am looking forward to my minivacation. I will be able to sit on the beach and get 2 full nights of sleep, in a row!!! I can't wait for her wedding, it is gonna be awesome!!!

I will update on the kids tomorrow. Chase goes for his 2 month appt tomorrow, so I will have new stats on him.

Tatoo

I'm thinking about getting this as my tatoo. What do ya think?

Chunky Monkey

Today Chase is 2 months old. I call him my little Chunky Monkey. He isn't really all that chunky, he is just so super long. Right now he weighs 12lbs 5oz and is 24 inches long! About 2 or 3 weeks ago I got the 3-6 month sleeper out for him. Well, it is already getting to the point where I'm gonna have to get the 6-9 month sleepers out, b/c he is so freakin long!! When he stretches it is about to crunch his toes!! I just can't believe how stinkin long he is. We also measured Emma last night and she is 36 inches tall. My kids are def gonna be taller than me, which isn't hard since I am only 5' 4". lol

As of 2 nights ago, Chase has started to sleep a little longer. He will usually eat around 8 or 8:30 and then not wake up till 1:30!! You talk about excited, I am so happy!! Finally a little more sleep for me. Plus this boy is eating like crazy. Sometimes he will eat 6 oz, but only during the day. At night I'm lucky if he eats 4oz before falling asleep. Then if he only eats 4oz during the day, he is ready to eat in just and hour or 2. He is getting so big, so fast!! Emma has started back on wanting to give him kisses and big hugs again. It is so sweet, I just have to remind her to be gentle. I absolutely love my life, I am so blessed to have my kids and husband. I am actually thinking about getting a tatoo. I'm not totally sure what I am getting or where, but I have an idea. I am either getting a flower and have the kids and Matt's names going around it or I am gonna get the world with the word my over it and then their names around it. I'm not sure yet, but I will post a pic of it when I get it done. Hopefully I don't chicken out, b/c I really want it.

I'm still here..

I think. Ok, so I haven't fallen off the face of the earth, just still adjusting to this whole 2 kid thing. lol Here's an update. Chase is starting to sleep a little longer, meaning instead of eating every 3 hours he is making it to every 3 1/2 to 4 hours. Heck, I'll take whatever I can get. This past Wednesday he was at the doctor for his congested nose, which he also happened to be exactly 8 weeks old. Well, he tipped the scales at a whopping (remember he was 8lbs at birth) 12lbs 5oz!!! Holy cow what a chunky monkey. The thing is, he isn't chubby, he is just so super incredibly long!! Last week he officially started wearing his 3-6 month clothes, but 2 weeks before that he was already wearing the 3-6 month sleepers!! He isn't even 2 month yet!! At 6 weeks and 2 days he gave me his first smile on purpose, melt my heart!! He is just so handsome and cute, he also still has the prettiest blue eyes!! He such an awesome addition to my family and I love him so much!! And I am quite proud to say so does Ms. Emma. She loves Baby Chase, as we call him. She gives him hugs and kisses all the time and gets quite upset if someone says they are gonna take him home. Last Thursday my parents kept the kids all night for me, you talk about wonderful!! I slept 13 hours!! Yes, 13 hours!! I could have slept longer, but was feeling a little guilty for just sleeping away the day. My parents are so awesome!! I don't know what I would ever do without them. My mom has seriously become my best friend. I hope Emma and I are able to have the same kind of relationship when she gets older. Emma is such a cutie and a terror at the same time. She is also so incredibily smart. She makes me so proud each time I look at her. I still can't believe she is mine, she is my beautiful daughter. Her favorite things right now are princesses, carebears and dress up. She has a wonderful imagination, anything and everything comes to life. She can even makes spoon and forks talk. lol I just love her, she is one big ball of energy and life!! Well, I know I am just blabbering and going in circles and I will blame that on the sleep deprevation. So, I'm gonna get off of here and maybe catch an hour or 2 of sleep. lol

We are getting there!!

Last night when Matt went to kiss Emma good night she said "Daddy I have to go potty." Usually this consists of her sitting on the potty with nothing happening, but not last night. She went potty!! Then I went in to say goodnight to her and she said "Mommy I have to go potty." Once again, she pottied on the potty. I was so proud of her. Matt and I hooped and hollared in excitment for her. I told her "Mommy is so proud of you Emma." Her reply was "I'm so proud of you too Mommy." How cute is that!! So far this morning no pottying in the potty, but I'm gonna work on her. This shows me that she knows what it feels like when she has to go. Hopefully not much longer till we are potty trained!!!

My new cut.

Here is my new cut and color. You can't really see the color in the pic tho. I also straighten it sometimes, which gives a totally different look. If I think about it, I will post a pic of it straight sometime.

I'm in Love!!

Yep, you read right. I am totally head over heals in love.....with my husband!! Just in the past week or so, I have fallen in love with my husband all over again. We have really reconnected and it feels great!! I just don't know how my life could get any better. I have a fabulous husband, a beautiful daughter and a handsome son. My family is complete and it is perfect!! I can honestly say I can't remember ever being this happy before. Grant it, my wedding day was such a happy day and the days that I had my kids, but now it is all complete. It has all fallen together. My life is perfect and I couldn't be happier!! I just wanted to share that.

Getting with the program!

Okay, so I am finally starting to "get with the program". Don't get me wrong, I am still dead tired, but it is starting to get easier. My depression is easing up some and I'm starting to feel a little more like myself. I think Emma is settling back into her routine, but we are gonna be tweaking it a bit. I'm trying to get it so that she is asleep by 9, but I am having a hard time getting this done. I have already limited her nap during the day to an hour, but that doesn't seem to do anything. I'm not too sure what to try next, but I'm sure I'll think of something.

Tonight we have Monday Night supper out at Mom & Dad's. So I am looking forward to getting out of the house. Plus, it is a good home cooked meal that I don't have to cook. Tomorrow I am going and getting my hair cut and colored, I can't wait!! My hubby likes my hair long, but I'm sick of it always being in a ponytail and I don't want to wear it down due to the fact of burping Chase. He doesn't need to be eating my hair. So, it is gonna get cut....short!! Plus, I can't wait to have highlights. I don't think I've had highlights since a couple months after Emma was born. Maybe I'll post a before and after pic tomorrow.

Sleep

Well, Chase is a little over 2 weeks old now and is already getting bigger. He had his appt this past Tuesday. He has gained 8oz and grew 3/4 of an inch. He is still a super calm baby and pretty much sleeps a lot still. The only thing is that they aren't super long stretches, atleast not at night. I am running on fumes right now and am so glad it is the weekend so that Matt can help out. I would love to have just one day where I could sleep for however long I wanted. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow, I'm atleast gonna get a nap in!!
Emma is still doing good. She loves baby Chase and is constantly wanting to look at him and "pet" him. lol We are kinda at a stand still on potty training. I want to get back to feeling like myself before I add potty training to my plate. Once I am settled in and feeling good, I'm just gonna put her in panties and pray for the best. lol I am also trying to figure out a better schedule for her so that she isn't up till 10. I would love to have her asleep by no later than 9. So, the first thing I am trying is limiting her nap to 1 hour, which also takes time away from my nap too, but oh well. Plus, I think I am gonna try to be up and have her up by 8am. The only thing is, right now I am trying to find any possible moment for me to sleep and this new schedule is really gonna cut into that. Oh well, it will get better....eventually. I mean, Chase has to start sleeping longer stretches sometime, right? My doc said that he should start sleeping longer stretches around 6 weeks, if that is the case, I still have a month to go. UGH!!
Well, even tho it is already 10 and only 1 1/2 hours away till Emma's lunch, I'm gonna get breakfast. My days fly by now that I am feeding someone every 3 hours. But on the same hand they also drag, b/c I'm cooped up in the house all day. But today I just might venture out to my parents after nap. It will be a change of scenery and Emma loves it out there, plus I don't want to take Chase anywhere with a lot of people yet. So, off to breakfast for me.

Can we say Woo Hoo!!

Ok, so I am just too excited. It has been 10 days since I have delivered my little guy and I am proud to say that I am weighing in less than I did before pregnancy and wearing my pre-pregnancy clothes! I am so excited!! I just have to tighten up the belly area and I'll be good to go. When I told my mom she instantly thought I wasn't eating, but let me reassure you, I eat every meal. Plus, I snack on junk food, since I wasn't able to have them for so long. I am just too excited and had to share!!

Poop!

Monday night before bed, Emma pooped in the potty!!! How exciting is that!! That makes 2 potties and 1 poop. It is a start!! I am so proud of her, hopefully once things calm down on the homefront I can really work with her and get this potty training done. She is getting so big!! I am just so proud! I even took a picture of her next to the potty with the poopy in it. Maybe I will add it later. lol She was so proud, plus she got a dollar out of the deal. Daddy is bribing her with money, dollars even. We will see, hopefully this is a start to a wonderful thing. lol

Change, Feed, Sleep and Repeat..

Wow, it has already been a week since Chase came into the world. Can you believe it? I mean, time has flown by in the blink of an eye, before I know it he is gonna be walking and graduating college. lol



Chase is such a calm baby. All he pretty much does is eat and sleep. At night I get around 3 hour stretches of sleep give or take a half hour, which isn't bad at all. And the whole boy thing is so totally new to me. I swear this kid just waits for me to be in the middle of changing him or putting the vasoline on his dooder and he just starts peeing, it doesn't matter if his diaper is completely full of pee, he still pees. But on a good note, I have yet for the pee to go onto me (knock on wood). lol I just don't know how to time my changings better so that he doesn't pee everytime I have that diaper off the boy.



As far as Emma goes, she seems to be going on as if nothing is new. She loves baby Chase and loves to look at him and give him kisses. She seems to be adjusting well, hopefully it continues that way.

Then there is me. Physically I am doing great. I feel good, physically. Emotionally, I'm a freakin wreck at times. With Emma I had postpardom depression bad! It isn't as bad this time around and it usually only occurs in the evening. I hate feeling this way and I can't wait for it to get better. It really flares up when Emma starts to give me a hard time or when she throws one of her fits. Then I get to thinking, I hope Emma doesn't feel like I am abandoning her for Chase. I don't want her to think Mommy doesn't love her or doesn't want her. This really worries me, I don't want to lose our bond. Just so much crap going thru my mind. Matt has been spending time with Emma which is great, but he goes back to work tomorrow. Is she gonna throw a fit when she wakes up and sees Daddy isn't home. Is she gonna rebel b/c Daddy isn't here and give me a hard time all day, which will result in me being a big ball of stress. I'm not looking forward to tomorrow, but I've gotta do it. I've gotta pull myself together and get with the program. So people out there, keep me in your thoughts and prayers that this post pardom crap goes away quick!! Thanks!!

Chase's Story

He has arrived!! Here is Chase's birth story. Of course I didn't sleep worth a crap due to nerves. Matt of course slept just fine, b/c heck all he has to do is watch. lol I had my alarm set for 6:30, but was up at 5:30. I got my shower and piddled around the house for a little bit. Got Matt up at 6:30 and our babysitter arrived at 7:15. We were just getting ready to leave and Emma woke up, boy that wasn't plesant. With just waking up and the fact that she has been glued to "My friend daddy" (that is what she calls him now) she threw a huge fit, but we had to go. She did calm down shortly after we left, she absolutly loves her babysitter, but you know how it goes sometimes.

We arrived at the hospital at 8 and then the fun began. I immediately felt nervous when she told me to put on the gown. Then the nerves hit once again when the iv went in. Boy oh boy, you would think I would be use to needles with the insulin shots, but nope. My doctor came in at 9 to check me and I was only at 3cms and he also broke my water. They then started the pitocin at 10 and also had to start sugar b/c my sugar was going low. Well, the waiting game began. Around noon my parents and Matt, which is everyone that was up there, went down for "coffee" which turned out to actually be lunch. Mom didn't want to say they were getting lunch b/c I was absolutely starving by this point. Which I wouldn't have cared if they would have told me. Anyways, while they were gone the nurse, Sandy which was AWESOME!!, came in and said that Chase's heart rate was dropping a little before contractions. So she had me lay onto my side. Before going onto my side my contractions weren't bad at all, just pressure. As soon as they put me on my side my contractions started hurting. I was up in my room breathing thru each contraction to the best of my ability. I then texted my dad and told him I was gonna be asking for my epideral so if mom wanted to be there she could and then my nurse came in and I told her I would like my epideral. It seemed like forever later the doctor finally came in to give it to me. I instantly started crying when he came in and I have to idea why. At 1:05 he gave me my epideral. The nurse then checked me and I was at 5cm, so I decided to settle in for a nap since I didn't sleep well the night before and I was expecting a long hard delivery. Well, I no longer was able to get comfy and then I started feeling pressure in my butt. I went thru about 5 or 6 contractions and then the nurse came in. I told her I was feeling pressure in my butt, but no urge to push. She checked me and said "Oh, we are having a baby, I can see the hair on his head" She immediately ran out to the hall and said "Get Scott in here now! We are having a baby NOW" (Scott being my doc) Scott was in and they told me to push when I felt a contraction. Well, with just having my epideral just an hour ago it was still working quite well. The nurse stood by me and kept her hand on my belly so she could tell me when to push. After just 4 contractions I had him out!! There was no pain at all with this delivery and only 1 stitch. It was so totally different from Emma. Emma's delivery was much more serious. With Chase it was more like a casual thing, everyone was chit chatting in between contractions. It was great!!

Now remember, 2 weeks ago they told me he was 8lbs. Well, they weighed him and he weighed 8lbs exactly and was 21" long. Now obviously the ultrasound was wrong 2 weeks ago!! But I'm glad it was, b/c he is not a baby elphant. lol After they weighed him I instantly asked about his sugar. It came back perfect!! He doesn't have any sugar problems, no problems at all. He is just perfect!! He is so handsome!! It is complete love at first sight.

After we got into our room, I had the babysitter bring Emma up. As soon as she hit the room she started giggling. She loves him too! Actually she got quite mad when someone else held him, b/c she didn't want to share. It was cute, I thought she wasn't gonna want anything to do with him, but I was so wrong. She doesn't mind other people holding him now. She loves holding him and giving him kisses. And when people ask if they can take him home she tells them no and says that he is her baby brother. It's too cute.

Adjusting to a newborn is hard. I'm use to the toddler stage, but we are getting there. Chase is so calm, he doesn't hardly ever cry. I can probably count on both hands how many times he has cried while I was around. It's great, but weird. I guess he just knows we've got our hands full with Emma so he is just gonna be laid back. lol As far as sleeping goes, the first night was rough. He didn't want to sleep in his bassinet so him and I camped out on the couch, he laid on my tummy. But night number 2, he slept in his car seat and only woke every 3-4 hours, which I can handle just fine. He gets his butt changed, woofs down his bottle in like 5-10 minutes, sits up for 1/2 an hour and then back to sleep. So we will see what night number 3 brings tonight.

But that's his story. We are all doing great!!! And our family is complete now. We are all here and at home together. It is great!!!

One last post..

So, ok. Last night it became time to go to sleep and the nerves hit. I became nervous and couldn't sleep. I think I was able to make it to sleep by 11, but was up at 1:15 to pee and then tossed and turned. I woke up about 5:30 and looked at the clock and tried to get some more sleep in b/c the alarm wasn't set to go off till 6:30, well needless to say at 6 I finally just got out of bed and headed for the shower. Any other morning I could go without breakfast for a while, but of course I can't eat this morning and I'm hungry. Most of it is probably nerves, but I'm still hungry. I'm also wondering how they are gonna manage my sugar since I can't eat. When I don't eat my sugar goes low, so I don't know if whatever they give me in my IV will take care of that or not.

Well, there isn't much to say I guess. Other than, I'm having a baby today!!! I'm totally excited about that but there is also so much to be nervous about. We will see. Keep me in your thoughts and I will post when I make it home and settled in.

Oh Happy Day!!!

Last night we had our normal Monday night supper at my parent's house. Matt met me there, b/c he got off work late. So, when it came time to leave he left first and took Emma with him. I told him I would be there shortly and would get her a bath when I got home. Well, when I got home he already had her in the bathtub. That's not the big news. Emma then told me that she peed in the potty. Yes, Emma has peed in the potty for the first time!! I was so excited and made a huge deal out of it so that she knew it was a great thing. Matt said that while he is off this following week that he is going to potty train her. That sounds great to me, more power to him!! I hope that he has huge success and now that she has actually gone in the potty then maybe it is actually gonna happen. I was just so excited!!

To top off the excitment, I go in tomorrow morning to have Chase. We have been talking about brining Chase home to Emma more than ever now. We have his room almost all the way done, but the stuff that does need done can be done after he is home with no problem. It looks totally western and I think it is just too cute!! Matt is totally jealous of it. So this time tomorrow I am guessing that I will still be dialating, but it would be awesome if I already have him but I don't see that happening. So, this will most likely be the last post before I become a mommy of 2!!!

4 Days to go!!

Okay, so I am sitting here watching tv and trying to just relax. I only have 4 days till my world gets turned upside down, in a good way. This time in 4 days I will be a mommy to 2 kids, atleast I better not still be in labor. lol I will be holding my sweet baby boy in my arms finally. I will be able to cuddle, hug, kiss and tell him how much he is loved. I can't wait to see him. I'm sure he will be this little cubby bundle of joy with massive hair. Oh man, I just can't wait!!
Last night I think I was having some contractions, but nothing consistant. Usually I only get them when I am walking, but this time I was taking a bath. I was kinda worried, but it all passed. But b/c of it, I made sure my bag is completely packed and ready to go. Chase's bag is ready too. Plus, I got all my grocery shopping done yesterday along with getting the few last minute things I needed so I'm all ready for when he comes home. I have the formula, bottles, nursery water and diapers. I should be set, but I can always send mom or Matt out for any little thing I need.
While in the hospital, one of my friends that works there is gonna bring me up some pancakes and chocolate milk. I am so excited!! I haven't had chocolate milk since I became pregnant and I love chocolate milk. Also, I'm gonna be able to eat my pancakes with real syrup, not sugar free. Oh man am I ready. Also, I haven't had Mountain Dew or any regular pop. Mmmm, I'm making myself so hungry, but I've gotta wait. There is light at the end of my food tunnel!! In 4 days I will be able to eat and drink whatever I want and not have to take a shot or worry about my sugar. I will be able to live a normal life again. Plus, I will be able to move around like a normal person too. I enjoy being pregnant, but I'm ready for my body back. I don't think it will take long, but who knows. I still have only gained 23lbs and it is all just out front in my belly, pretty much all baby. So, I am hoping it will all go away quickly.
Well, I think my bed is calling me, even tho it is only 9:15 on a Saturday night, but for whatever reason I am super tired right now. I guess I better get my rest while I can.

37 Weeks

Ok, I am back from the doctors and have the results. I am still 1-2cm dialated and 80% efaced or however you spell it. Well, I will be going in at 8am on Wednesday the 16th to have Mr. Chase Andrew!! I am so excited and ready!! I am putting my guess in right now saying that he will be 9lbs 7oz and 21" long. If you wanna make a guess, put it in a comment. We will see who will be closest.

My doctor is gonna let me labor for a while and if he just isn't gonna be able to thru then off to have a c-section. Please, please, please pray that I will not need a c-section. This scares me half to death, I mean I will do it if I have to. I will do whatever for my baby, but I would rather have him naturally. Other than that, I don't really have much to update about. Life is still as it was last week, but this week we have a bright light at the end of the tunnel!! So, keep me in mind come next Wednesday. If you live in the area, feel free to come visit me in the hospital or sometime after I get home, as long as you aren't sick of course!! I will try to post another prego pic before going in and I'm gonna see if I can bring Matt's laptop to the hospital to hopefully do a post and emails. I'm not letting Matt stay up at the hospital all day long while I'm recovering, b/c I want him to spend some special quality time with Emma before we bring home Chase, so I will have some free time and possibily even some quiet time. lol

Am I gonna make it??

Ok, this may sound weird since I have a child already, but what does it feel like to go into labor by yourself? I was induced with Emma, so I was expecting it and it wasn't like a surprise or anything. Tuesday I will be 37 weeks and need to hold this baby in for yet another week to insure his lungs are ready. Well, there are times when I am walking that it feels almost like a little charlie horse in the "area". Anybody know what this might be? Is this any sign of labor or is it just b/c his head is down and putting a lot of pressure? Also, I have started feeling sick to my stomach at times or after eating sometimes it makes my stomach gargle. I don't know what that is about. Plus, I have acquire a stuff nose which makes sleep even more uncomfortable. As much as I want this baby out right now, I've gotta keep him in, I just don't know if I'm gonna make it. I go back to the doc on Tuesday afternoon, we'll see what he says. Hopefully he will give me the induction date.

My cookout that I had plan for the upcoming weekend, I had to push off onto a friend. Matt and I talked about it and with the way I've been feeling and everything that needs done with the house, plus Matt has a special project at work that is gonna require overtime we just couldn't host it. Which really sucks, b/c I like hosting the party and that, but I had to. So, Lynne took it on, which by the way Thank You!! Now we can all still get together and chat and have a good time.

Chase's room is almost done. Matt is working on it as we speak. He is putting up trim and we have the carpet to install. Hopefully it will be done by Tuesday!! Matt is a very western/country boy. He loves John Wayne and anything that looks cowboyish. Well, Chase's room is a western room and Matt is jealous of all the cool stuff I have for Chase's room. I will be sure to put up some pics, but the coolest thing I think I have is a floor lamp that is a rifle. It looks so cool. I got it from LTD. It came with a 6 shooter for a wall mounted lamp and then there is a lamp for the dresser too.

After Chase's room, it is Emma's room, which I am not in any hurry to start. We are decorating in princesses. I am gonna paint the bottom half blue then have a border in the middle and stripe the top with pink and yellow. It should look cute when I am done. I am just so ready to have my house back to a house again and not a construction site. Well, enough babbling for now. Gotta finish supper, but I will update after my doc appt on Tuesday!

All About Me

So, my friend Lynne did a post today all about herself and she asked for the blogger world to follow. So, I'm using the same topics she discussed, but obviously filling it in with stuff about me.

10 years ago, I was 16. Dating Jason, horrible horrible horrible decision!! Thought I had found the love of my life and spent my whole summer before Junior year with him. He is now 30 years old and still living at home with his parents. I don't know what he does for a living, but I heard it has nothing to do with the oh so fabulous psych degree he has. I was working at The Family Diner with my best friend Melissa. Really, I wish there was more to talk about, but 10 years ago, Jason was my life. I'm really mad at myself for making a guy my whole life and ignoring my friends.

I'm gonna add 5 years ago. 5 years ago, I was 21. Living in my current house with Matt. We had only been living together for about 5 months, but loving. We were living carefree. Spending atleast 1 weekend out of the month in Columbus at my brothers house. We picked up and went where ever we wanted whenever we wanted. I was working at US Plastics.

Today, I am 26. Still living in the same house from 5 years ago. I have gotten married and enriched my life with a little girl and am currently 9 months pregnant. My life has become hectic at times and don't just pick up and go anymore, but I am loving life more than ever. I have the best job in the world, I am a stay at home mommy. I also think it can be the most stressful at times, but it is so worth it.

5 things on my to-do list today. 1) Pack my bags for the hospital. 2) Finish packing Chase's bag. 3) Clean the bathroom. 4) Do some laundry. 5) Fix some supper. How many of these things will get done? Who knows, just depends on how the day goes. lol

Snacks that I love to eat. My mother-in-law bought these awesome Strawberry Praline things from Sam's Club. OMG, they are to die for!! Mc Donald's vanilla ice cream cone, it is so creamy or if we go uptown then a chocolate cone. I've been enjoying Frito's lately too, not too sure why but they have been tasting good. I can't think of anymore right now, but those Strawberry things are just top notch for me right now.

If I were a millionaire what would I do. I would pay off my house and give it to someone who could use it and truely appreciate it. I would build myself a nice house, not a big one, but a nice one that fits my family. Of course pay off all bills. I would pay off my parents house and have a brand new Chrysler 300 and a 1950 something Vet sitting in my parents driveway with a huge red bow on each one. I would do the same for the inlaws too, just not sure what kind of car they would like. I would help my brothers out some too. I would love to start some kind of charity that helps kids and families in need. After that, I have no clue. I guess it would kinda be like a go with the moment kind of thing, but we def live reasonably and not like millionaires, it just isn't our style.

Anyways, that are some things about me. So, feel free to do the same on your page and let me know when you do!

9 Months

So, today marks the beginning of my 9th month. And of course I had my weekly appointment. Today, I got an ultrasound, nonstress test and my cervix checked (for the 1st time). So, I'm getting ready to have my ultrasound and before I get up on the bed I say "I'm gonna say he is 7lbs, maybe a couple ounces too, but 7lbs." The reason for this is, he has been following 1/2lb a week for the past couple of months and 3 weeks ago he was 5 1/2lbs. So, she does all the measuring that she does and then took the cute pics for me. Which by the way, she showed us that he has hair!! I figured he would probably come out with a whole head full since Emma came out bald and hair challenged!! lol So, we get done with all of that and she brings up the screen with all his stats and she says, "He is 8lbs." The look on my face had to tell it all!! I couldn't believe it, I immediately went into complete shock and disbelief!! Holy cow!! 8lbs!!! The first thing that came to mind was c section. I don't want a c section, it absolutely scares me to death!! So, onto the nonstress test I went. Both nurses that I talked to in there made it sound like they wouldn't be surprised if he induces me next week. Complete panic comes over me. We don't have Chase's room done yet, my house is a complete mess due to remodeling. Oh my gosh, what in the heck am I gonna do. But wait, it gets better. The doc comes in to check my cervix, not only is Chase 8lbs, but I am 1-2cm dialated! I couldn't believe it. He said that we will be inducing in 2 weeks, but he wants me to stay pregnant for the next weeks so that his lungs have more time. I guess with diabetes it slows down the growth of the lungs and that. Isn't that crazy, it slows the organs down but speeds up the body's growth. So here I sit, 9 months prego with a so far 8lb baby and 1-2cm dialated. I am rethinking everything I do on a daily bases. I'm gonna stop lifting and pushing and pulling all the heavy stuff that I do, so it doesn't cause me to progress, not gonna do tons of walking. I've gotta keep this baby in for 2 weeks, I don't want to see him with a tube down his throat to keep him breathing. I don't want to see him in the nicu, I want to be able to hold my baby and bring him home after our 2 day stay at the hospital. I don't want him to go thru all that crap, that is what really scares me. You always hear about other people that have babies and they have to have all of that stuff, but I don't want it to be my baby. I want my baby to be fine, great, and perfect. I guess I can only do what I can do and the rest is up to God.

35 Weeks

Yesterday I had my 35 week check-up, which consisted of a non-stress test. Going into the appointment I was expecting to have my cervix checked, b/c last week he told me he was. Well, we go in and have the non-stress test and Chase was being super active!! But everything was great! The doc came in and he decided we are gonna hold off to check my cervix till next week. My mom and I was pretty bummed, b/c he said as soon as he checks my cervix he will be able to tell me when he will induce me. I was really looking forward to finding out, but now it is onto another week of waiting! Oh well I guess. He will be here soon enough I guess. My mom and brother's girlfriend seem to think that I will go into labor on my own the 2nd week of July. I just don't see that happening. I think I will be induced on the 21st, but I guess we won't know till next week. Can ya believe it, I only have 3-5 weeks left. Thank goodness!!!

34 Weeks and a Crazy Weekend!

This past weekend we had Relay for Life. That was so incredibly tiring!! The whole time I only walked 2 laps, but I was the one manning the booth. We had a couple games, cookies, watermelon wedges and our raffle. So, from 6pm to about 11:30pm I was on my feet. Boy oh boy did I feel it the next day!! Anyways, I wanted to stay all night and keep going, but Matt had gone home and took Emma too. He was needing to take a couple pain killers for his ankle, which would knock him out, and I didn't want him to be knocked out and something happen with Emma or with him. So, home I went. I was in bed by 12 and tossed and turned all night. Back up at 6:30 and out at the booth by 7. Not to sound too personal or gross, but standing the whole night before made my crotch hurt. It was like Chase was pushing down as far as he could, I was quite sore. But I did run into a old friend from school, Steph Rammel. I haven't seen her in forever, prob not since her, Lynne and I went out to eat and that was several years ago. Anyways, I invited her to a cookout I'm having with some of my friends so we can get caught up on all the years.

The relay was great tho and we had a lot of fun! The kids really enjoyed playing together and all of the stuff going on around. The relay really means a lot to me and especially to my mom. My mom's dad and sister both have passed away from cancer and this is her way to be able to do something in their memory. What makes it even harder is relay always falls on Father's Day weekend so that brings the extra fond memories of her dad back and her sister passed away the day after Father's Day, so they are both thought of extra that weekend. We always get a luminary in their memory and this year they had a person from each team read the names of their luminaries. So, I was the one to read it. I didn't think it would be hard at all, but I was wrong. There is so much emotion that comes rushing to you at that time in the relay. You know they are gone, but the thought that they will never walk thru your door again or you will never get to see them again just gets ya. Plus, this year we added another family member to the luminary list. My dad's Uncle Vern just recently passed away. But on the bright side of relay, they celebrate all the survivors! I knew a couple of the survivors, we had a good friend on our team that is one, Steph's mom is one and a girl I went to school with her little girl at just 5 is one. That was awesome to see everyone that is beating this horrible disease! We have already started planning for next years relay and are all pumped to make it huge!

The rest of our weekend consisted with Matt laying on the couch with his foot proped up. He had done a couple laps at relay and boy was he paying a huge price for that! Then on Sunday he decided to work in the bathroom and put up a couple of walls. Well, on Monday morning he woke feeling horrible again and wasn't able to put weight on it. Well, he called the doc and they asked if he had a high arch and he wasn't sure, but the boot doesn't have any arch support in it at all. So, I went and bought a arch support and that has seemed to help out. So, hopefully he is on the way to getting better.

On Monday I went for my first non-stress test. I had to do that for 20 minutes and had to keep Chase in one place so that it would keep track of his heart beats. Well, this boy doesn't stay still for nothing, so I had my work cut out for me. So, after having to push him back into place 15 million times, the 20 minutes was finally up. Everything was great, he is still perfect!! The doc says I have to come back next week for another one and he will start checking my cervix then too. Last time he said once he started checking my cervix we could get a good idea when he is gonna induce me. So, hopefully next week I will know when I will be delivering. After next week's non-stress test I go back the following week for my last ultrasound. Boy oh boy am I getting close! I only have 4-6 weeks left right now, is that nuts or what. Hopefully we get all of our remodeling done in time, which mom keeps saying we will. Matt has started on tearing apart our old bathroom, so that is good. I don't think that room should take too long, but we'll see.

Anyways, I have rambled on and on. I better get around so I can get all my running done. My poor cousin is ready to pop any minute, she is almost 2 weeks past due to have her baby and her 1 year old is in the hospital right now. They don't know what is wrong, but he had a seizure yesterday morning and they can't keep his fever down, so I am going to go visit her for a little bit, get some groceries (I hate grocery shopping), get some stuff for Chase and possibly stop and see my grandparents. But then again, that all depends on Ms Emma and what kind of mood she is in. lol

7lbs and a boot later...

Ok, so I went for my 33 week check-up today which included another ultrasound. Chase is looking wonderful!! He is at 5 1/2lbs now, which brings him down from the 93rd percentile to the 81st percentile, which is great but still means he is big. I asked the doc if we are still looking at inducing early and he said most likely but will talk more once he starts checking my cervix which is around 35 or 36 weeks. I go back to the doc Monday for my first of several non-stress tests. This is just for safety percautions to make sure with my GD that Chase isn't stressing out on me. Oh, you might be wondering about the title, well in 3 weeks I have gained 7lbs. That seems like a lot, but it only brings my total weight gain to 23lbs, which isn't bad. With Emma I gained 39lbs, so I am still way below that.

Onto the boot. Matt went to the orthropedic doc today and he put Matt into a boot. He said to wear it for a week or 2 and then start weining himself off of it. If it still hurts in 4 weeks to come back, but it was a very minor break. Thank goodness!!!

So, we had an ugly weekend, but things are looking up. This weekend both of my brothers will be helping us with our remodeling. Plus, if we have to call in for backup we had a friend volunteer to help out, which is great. Just when you think you are all alone and everything is going wrong, your friends and family step up and help out. Boy I couldn't live without either!! Anyways, I am exhausted so it's time to put my big ole prego butt to bed. lol

My Weekend. UGH!!

Okay, so I was kinda looking forward to the weekend. We had some of Matt's family that was gonna be in for the weekend and we had a cookout at the lake to go to. Matt took friday off, so it was a long weekend with him at home too. Well, it all began on Friday night. Matt stepped off our back porch and stepped half on the sidewalk and half off, resulting in a broken ankle. So, now he is in a air cast till Tuesday when we go to the orthropedic doctor and he decides on whether he needs a walking cast or a cast cast. We are hoping for a walking cast and the doctor at urgent care said it was just a minor break, so we are keeping our fingers crossed.

We did make it to our cookout on Saturday, which was nice. It wasn't too hot and Emma was really good. It just made me really nervous having her that close to the water. She's not scared of anything and doesn't get the concept that she can drown.

Then today, Matt and I are in the kitchen talking and all of a sudden it sounded like someone turned the water on in the "old" bathroom. Well, I go in and a fitting blew off where our sink use to be and water was shooting up, almost to the ceiling. OMG!! I start yelling for Matt to hurry and shut the water off and with him being on crutches isn't as fast as it normally is. Water was everywhere, but not only that, but it got under our hardwood floor in the dining room. So, now we have our laminate floor half tore up with a fan drying it and towels all over our old bathroom. We have 5 and 7 weeks till Mr. Chase makes his appearance and we don't have a room for him yet. We are pretty much under the mercy of our brothers generosity to help us so that we can finish our remodeling. There is still some stuff Matt can do but not everything with a broken ankle.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot. We kicked our ac on on Thursday. Once we kicked it on, it didn't stop till 9pm or so. Everyday it has ran non-stop!! It is brand freakin new, we just had it put in last year. So, on Friday they came out and told us to do this and that and if it didn't help over the weekend to give them a call on Monday. Well, I'm calling on Monday!! Our ac has been running since 8am this morning and it only gets hotter. I am one PO'ed lady and the ac guy isn't gonna like me come tomorrow morning. He told us that the ac was big enough to cool our house, well obviously it isn't!! And they are gonna fix it, for FREE!!!

So, to sum up my weekend, UGH!! And in result of it, I am one grumpy lady!!! Hopefully this week will be better. I go to the doc on Tuesday for and ultrasound and I will give an update on Chase. Emma is still Emma. She is making a fine 2 year old, lol. We get those spells where I just don't know what to do with her and then she turns around and is loving and saying "I love you too Mommy." I guess she is just the typical 2 year old and I'm just gonna have to stick it out!