What I'm thinking....

So, I think I may have found the cut and color that I want. The first pic is the cut and the second is the possible color. Although on the color I might not get the dark brown in it. What do you fellow bloggers think? Think it will work?

Just remember, here is somewhat of a current me, except it is a little longer now.

Time for a haircut!!

Okay, so I'm ready for a new do. Anyone have any ideas?? I wanna get some color and also shorten up the back, but I want a style not just blah. I don't feel like my hair has a style. The only thing about me wanting to cut my hair is, Matt likes it long and it hasn't been long since I was prego. But it has been hot lately and that is making me want my hair shorter. Anyways, if you have any ideas let me know.

Awesome Weekend!!

We had a great weekend!! Started off Saturday morning with some garage saling with my friend Ashley. Had some lunch at Panera Bread, YUM!!! (Has to be one of my favorites!!) Came back to the house and hung out with the family and around 6 we threw some hamburgers and hot dogs on the grill and had Dave and Ashley over for a fire. It was great. Then Ashley and I walked uptown for some ice cream. It was so nice to get outta the house!! Came back and just BSed for a while and watched the fire. Sunday we went down to the mom-in-laws house for a little bit. Enjoyed her back patio. Then came back to the house for some grilling, bubble blowing and Chase swinging good time. Later on I thought I heard something. Could it be? Oh yeah, it was the ice cream truck, first round of the season.

Emma just had to have the Spider Man one. She loved it and was a complete sticky mess when it was all said and done! While she ate that, Matt and I moved our furniture from the front porch to the back deck and brought the swing to the front porch. After that it was time for baths. We all needed one after being outside in the AWESOME whether!!! Then to top off a WONDERFUL weekend, Chase slept all night last night!! We are doing great here and I am feeling wonderful!!! I must of had the winter blues, b/c I'm feeling awesome. Nothing like being able to have the windows opened, the kids playing outside and the sun shining bright!!!

Steppin

So, the other day Chase took his 1st step!!! I am so excited!!!! He has now been able to take 5 steps in a row!! I am just so excited, but sad all in one. My baby is growing up!! Last night he got up in the middle of the night and as I cradled him and bounced around I just looked at his face and then looked at how incredibly long he is. I just can't believe how time flies so fast, it's not even letting me take a breath! He also finally cut those top 2 teeth that have been RIGHT there for about a month now. So, my baby is starting to walk and has 5 teeth. Wow!
The other day I was getting Emma's shoes on her and told her to sit on my lap. She goes "I fit, it's big enough." I told her that my lap will always be big enough for her. She is just getting so big too. She is 3 and acts likes a teenager at times. She just amazes me at the things she says. I painted her toe nails the other day. She hopped up and said "I wanna go to Florida." Well, the story behind that is, when we went back in January my mother-in-law told Emma that I needed to paint her toe nails for the beach. She just never forgot that and so she is ready for Florida now that her toe nails are painted. lol I must say, I'm ready for Florida too, but I don't know if that is gonna happen.
Anyways, the nice weather is awesome!! The kids got to go outside and play yesterday and that was a huge relief on the nerves. It looks like today will be the same so I'm gonna ship the kids outside. (BTW, by kids I am talking about Emma and my nephews)
Oh yea, I recently turned another year older, which doesn't bother me at all. My wonderful hubby got me a certificate to get a massage and get my hair done. I am so excited to use it. I just might have to get a pedicure, never had one before but heard they are great. Then our anniversary is in May and he made me a cedar chest with our last name on the front. It is beautiful, my plans are to pass is down to Emma when she gets married or something like that. I'm trying to think of something awesome to give/do for him, it'll be 4 years on the 21st. So, I've gotta get to thinking, I'm running outta time.
Also, I'm going garage saling this Saturday. I can't wait!! I love garage saling!!!! It's the first of the season for me and I am just thrilled!!! Then Saturday night we are having a fire and Sangrias. This should be an awesome weekend, full of lots of fun! I can't wait!!!

Do you ever?

Do you ever feel like you are just not quite good enough? Do you ever feel like you have failed? I mean, this is stuff that people feel at some point, right? Even if people don't want to admit it, they do, right? Well, I'm there, I've been there for a while now. I feel like I just can't do anything up to par, like my best isn't enough. Then again, am I giving my best? Sometimes I don't feel like it. Heck, I just don't feel like doing anything. It's like I'm going thru the motions, but that is it sometimes. Don't get me wrong, it's not like that 24/7. There are moments thru the day when I get back to myself and I'm happy and playing around like the person I know I am. One minute I can be blah then happy then straight back to blah. What is the deal? Is it the winter blues, or just the plain old blues? Today I have decided that I need to sit down with my brother and sister-in-law and let them know that I can't babysit anymore. Everyone that knows me, knows I'm not the babysitting kind. I've actually never wanted to, except when I was younger. I really don't have the patience for it. Well, back in September I started watching my nephews. I really wanted to be able to help my brother out and wanted my nephews somewhere where I knew they would be ok and would want to go. I've wanted to give up a long time ago, but I don't want to let my family down. I hate letting people down, I hate not being able to give people what they want. I love to do stuff for people to make them happy, I guess I am a people pleaser. Well, I've gotta put that aside and do what is best for me, mentally and therefore, what is best for my kids. They don't deserve to have their mom in this wreck if there is a way to fix it. So, here I am thinking about how to say it to my brother, but it has got to be said and done. Hopefully this will help with this blah mood.

9 Months

So, yesterday we went for Chase's 9mth doc appt. He is weighing in at a whopping 22lbs and is measuring 29 1/2" tall!! He is growing so fast. That is 2lbs and 1 1/2" in 3mths. Everything is great, except for the fact that he has another ear infection. I didn't even know it!! He is teething and we have all had colds so it is hard to know that he had the ear ache too. So, now we are on meds for that. Hopefully he gets over it and we will be good to go. I'm really not in the blogging mood right now, so I will update later when the mood hits. But I just wanted to note how big he is and how the appt went.

BTW, Emma is a little farsighted, but within normal limits.

What a long time.

Well, I haven't posted in a while. Not a whole lot has been happening. I've been in my little funk, as I like to call it. I'm really not sure why or what for sure it is. It's just kinda like, I'm here. A friend of mine and I are kinda going thru the same thing and we really don't know why. It seems like we share the same feelings and emotions right now and neither one of us know how to fix it. It sucks being in this dark hole and not knowing how to find your way out. Don't get me wrong. I do love my life. I love my husband, I love my kids, I love my family. I'm just kinda blah. Maybe part of it is winter blues and things will get better once I can be outside more frequently. Maybe some of it is just lack of sleep for the past 9 months and it is all finally coming crashing down on me. Maybe it is just me. I don't know, but I'm about to the point where I am just going to make myself start doing stuff. I'm gonna get a schedule and whether or not I feel like doing it I'm gonna. I'm gonna force myself to be what I want to be, even tho I don't really have the motivation to do it. I don't know, but I will post a happier post later. Chase has his 9 month check-up today so I will have better things to talk about.

Suggestions needed!

Okay, so I am getting desperate!! Any ideas of things I can try to get Chase to sleep all night? I tried the whole cereal in the bottle and that just seems to make him wake up more often. Am I just gonna have to wait it out?? Holy cow, I've had 6 uninterrupted nights of sleep in almost 9mths. That doesn't even average out to a night a month! Anyways, I'm exhausted and I'm imune to Mt Dew, so that doesn't give me the kick I need. I'm thinking about getting one of those 5hr energy drinks. Maybe I will get lucky enough and all the kids will nap at the same time so I can nap too. Maybe if I start cleaning, that will wake me up. I don't know, but I've gotta do something!!

Aren't they cute!!

Here is a pic of Emma and my neice Rylee at Kailey's basketball game. Emma is actually a year younger than Ry. I just thought this was too cute of a pic not to share it.