Oh Happy Day!!

Yesterday was my doctor's appointment and everything went great. The baby's heartbeat is 160! One hyper little baby!! It was also nice and strong. The doc was happy with my sugar and wasn't worried at all about my lack of weight gain. He said that the baby will take what it needs and it will be fine. I go back in 3 weeks for an ultrasound. At which time we will get to find out what we are having, I am so excited I can't wait!!

This morning I went to the diabetic center. Ever since I had the flu, my readings have been really good. Well, I get in there and they take my sugar and then also have me take it with my meter. My meter was way off from theirs, so they checked it with another. Then they checked my strips to make sure they weren't bad. Nope, my meter is bad, it has been reading high for who knows how long. So, that means my sugar has been absolutely wonderful!! They gave me a new meter, so hopefully this one will continue to work properly. The dietician was happy with all of my readings and even threw in another snack for me. She said that I don't have to cut out my sweets, just maybe eat all protein for supper then I can have a piece of cake. I have been so hungry for chocolate cake with chocolate icing. YUM!! So, I left there quit happy!!

Matt is coming home tomorrow! I go to pick him up from the airport tomorrow and I am excited to see him and I'm sure Emma will be quite happy.

Also, in approx 2 weeks, I will be a stay at home mommy. At least for the next 6 months. My work has increased my route from 400 miles a week to 930 miles a week. Which is ridiculous!! So, they gave me the option of taking it or them letting me go and collecting unemployment. So, you guessed it, I will be home for the next 6 months b/c you know nobody is gonna hire some prego. I am looking forward to my time home. I will be able to help a lot with the remodeling, getting my house organized and hopefully with the extra time get to get Emma potty trained!! Plus, the last month of my pregnancy, it sounds like I will be at the doctors office more than I am at home, so work would have been impossible. Today has just turned out to be a fabulous day!!

Quick Update

Okay, so not a lot has been going on. But I do have some good news. I have been able to get my sugar undercontrol. I'm not sure how exactly, but I have. That is a huge relief. I was suppose to go to the Diabetic Center last Friday, but due to weather ONCE AGAIN my appointment was cancelled. So, I am suppose to go this Thursday. So far the weather isn't calling for any snow that day, so hopefully I will be able to make it. This weekend I have been eating a little more carbs than I am suppose to. We ate out a lot this weekend and I felt like I've done such a good job with my sugar that I kinda overindulged. I had a Big Mac, which by itself would have been fine, but I just had to add in a small fry. Then on Saturday night we ate at Ci Ci's Pizza (first time we ever ate there) and I finished the meal with one of their cinnamon rolls. Then today I had fish sticks (been craving them), which would have been fine, but I added a few fries and a 1/2 an ear of corn. So, my sugar was high. But back onto the strick diet first thing in the morning. It felt good to splurge and it wasn't like I totally went off the diet. If I don't do this everyonce in a while, I think I would go nuts.

Oh, the reason for all the eating out. Matt, Emma and I went and stayed in a hotel Saturday night. The 3 of us slept in a King size bed, mind you this is the first time Emma has ever slept in bed with us and I don't care to do it again anytime soon. She is use to being rocked for atleast a little while, so it was hard to get her to settle down. Then after she fell asleep at 10:30, she woke up twice crying before 1:00. Then for the rest of the night, her feet were in my face and her face was in Matt's face. And then the lovely alarm went off at 4:00am, it was time to get ready and take Matt to the airport. Yes, he is gonna be gone all week. Boy does this suck!! It is gonna be interesting how Emma handles it. She loves her Daddy, so we'll see how long she lasts before withdraw. So at 5:30 in the morning I am driving home from Dayton, which is about an hour away. But wait, this wasn't any typical morning, let's throw in some freezing fog that only allows you to go 45 down I-75. It was horrible!! Between not being able to see very far in front of me, but then the fog putting ice on my windshield. I was tired and just wanted to go home, but obviously I made it and in once piece.

This week I also have my doctors appointment. I will be 18 weeks on Tuesday, so I was hoping that they would be giving me an ultrasound, but no such luck. I called to see if I was scheduled for one and they said no. So I guess I won't be finding out what I am having until next month.

Well, it is going on 10 and I wanna go to bed, but first I have to get Emma to go to sleep. I will update after I have my 2 appointments.

Feeling Better..

Luckily, I only had to battle the flu for about 24 hours. I am so thankful. I am still a little weak, but other than that I am feeling good. I have been able to keep down every meal today and even manage to get some dishes done. Now, I am just waiting and hoping that Emma didn't happen to catch any of it. In previous posts I have mentioned that I am worried about not gaining any weight. Well, now thanks to the flu, I have lost even more weight. I don't know what to do or if I should even be worried about it. I just feel like I should be gaining weight. I'm not trying not to gain weight, I want to gain weight!! So, I guess when I go to the doc next week I will see what he says. Maybe I'm just worrying for nothing.

Flu

So, the flu bug has been going around the area like a plague. I was just bragging to mom the other day how we have been able to avoid it. Boy oh boy did I speak too soon!! As of 6:30 last night, I have the flu. Man does it suck. Not only do I have the flu, but diareha on top of that. Not to be too graphic, but while on the toilet I have to hold a trash can, I'm telling ya, this both end stuff is for the birds. I called my doctor's offic to see about dehydration, since I even puked up my water. They told me to go to the ER for an IV. Well, I'm home alone with Emma right now, so that isn't possible. Plus, I figured I would try drinking some water again. I have been puke free for a little over 2 hours now, so maybe I can beat it without having any needles to deal with. I haven't had the flu since JR. High. So that has been like 13 years or so, I guess it is just my turn, but why does it have to be while I'm prego. UGH! Anyways, I'm gonna try to rest some more and drink some more water. Poor Emma doesn't understand why I'm not playing with her. I hope this is over soon!!!! I'll update later.

Oh Sugar, Sugar!!

Well, I have been absolutely horrible about updating. I have been a little busier, between doing some store resets for work and then having to go clear to Cleveland for a meeting. But really it all boils down to being lazy. I just haven't felt like doing much, I'm still awaiting the return of my energy. I am starting to think that it is never coming back and I will be a lazy slug forever. Most of the time I've gotta force myself to do stuff and that just stinks, but the stuff has got to get done.

Let's start with little Ms. Emma. She is not so little, I swear she is a teenager stuck in a 2 year olds body. The other day I was trying to rock her to sleep for night night. Of course she just kept talking and I told her she needs to be quiet. She looked at me and said "whatever". No kidding, she told me whatever about a total of 6 times. Total teenager already. She also says "Oh my gosh", "Uh oh spaghetti o's" and the newest is "I like that". Or like tonight I fixed spaghetti for supper and I asked her if she wanted some and she said "I like Spaghetti". It is just too cute!!! Oh by the way, Emma is a noodle freak!!! Usually for supper I try to fix some kind of noodle with whatever else I am making, b/c Emma will eat the crap out them! I don't know what it is, but she just loves noodles!

As far as potty training goes, we haven't really been too successful, but I haven't really been pushing the issue. She just totally doesn't seem too ready for it. We have a potty chair and she loves sitting on it, esp with her clothes on. I will take her into the potty when I have to go and she will sit on her potty, but nothing happens. I'm just not sure how to go about this whole potty training thing. Part of it, I know, is my fault. I just haven't had the energy to put into it. But I've gotta start, I've gotta make myself. I would really love to have her trained before the baby comes. So, my goal over the next 5 months is to get her potty trained, plus a whole lot of other things, but I really need to get her potty trained.

Other things on my todo list is, get this pig sty of a house organized. I really need to go thru stuff and get rid of the stuff we don't need. This spring we are doing some remodeling. We currently have a 2 bedroom, 2 bath house. Well we are gonna turn the one bathroom (which is a big bathroom, it's the same size as Emma's bedroom) into the baby's room, then we are going to add on another bathroom, and enclose a porch to make into a computer room. Not only are we doing that, but we are gonna move a couple walls, we are gonna move an interior wall to make our bedroom bigger and then we are gonna move our counter top and cabinets over to make our kitchen bigger. Plus, Matt says we have to reshingle the roof. Boy oh boy do we have a busy spring coming up. I hope to have it all done by the end of the school year so that we can put our house back up for sale. Supposively the end of the school year thru summer is the best time to sell a house. Of course the market isn't the greatest right now, but with all the improvements we are doing it will make it more likely to sell. So I guess we will just have to wait and see.

Okay, onto what lead to the title of the blog. My biggest problem, the stress of my life, Sugar!!! I just don't understand it for anything. I will follow my carb intake and even stay under what I am allowed but my sugar reading one hour later will still be high. I just don't get it at all!! It is becoming quite frustrating and stressful, which stress will make your readings go high too. I recently had Panera Bread for the first time (we don't have one in Lima yet) and I absolutely loved it!!! I stayed under my 60 grams and my reading was 183, I am suppose to stay between 90 and 130. I just don't get it. Then tonight I ate the full 60 grams and my reading was only 113. It is just baffling me. The nurse at the diabetic center called me this past Tuesday to get my readings. She said I was doing a good job with staying within my carbs, but my body just isn't producing the insulin needed. She was like "We are talking about insulin today, but in the next few weeks we just might be." That means I'm gonna be giving myself shots!! I HATE NEEDLES!! I am freaked out beyond belief, which makes me feel stupid b/c a friend of mines little boy who is only 5 has to take 5 shots a day. And he does it like a champ. Here I am, almost 26, and the thought of it can easily bring me to tears. Yes, some of that might be hormones, but it still scares me senseless. If we didn't already know that we are stopping after this baby, this pregnancy would have made my mind up. I hate not being able to enjoy this pregnancy, between the sugar crap and plus I'm just a lot more busy with having Emma. Maybe it will be different once the baby starts kicking. It just seems like I am so focused on this sugar crap that I'm just not as excited and that makes me feel horrible, like a bad mom. Anyways, I better move on before this makes the tears start flowing.

I have yet to gain any weight. I am 16w 4d, and no weight gain. That is also bothering me, a lot of women are like "you should be happy that you aren't gaining weight". But it is worring me, I should have gained something by now. I eat whenever I allowed to and when I'm not allowed carbs I try to eat a salad or something. So, it can' be because I'm not eating, it's just so weird. I go back to my doc on the 27th, I'll see what he says. Oh, and I go back to the diabetic center on the 22nd, we'll see if they sentence me to shots then. UGH!!

Onto other things. Matt got a new position at work. He gets to work M-F, all during the day. He has every weekend off, unless he desides to work. I love it!! It is absolutely fabulous having him home in the evenings and weekends. The only downside is, the last week of this month he has to go to Arizona for the whole week. I have to take him to the airport on that Sunday morning and pick him up the following Friday night. Matt and I have never been apart for more than one night, so this will be weird for me, but I will make it. I'm worried about Emma. She absolutely loves Daddy, I'm not sure how she is gonna react. I think she will go crazy and it will probably be a hard week. But I'm sure we will make it thru it. Oh and he is gonna be gone for my appointment. I'm not sure if I'm gonna get an ultrasound, but if I do they might be able to tell me what we are having and he will miss it. That sucks, but I thought I would have a balloon sent to his hotel saying what it is. I thought it would be fun and a cute way for him to find out. We'll see.

Well, I've rambled on forever now and Emma has got one stinky butt. So I better go change her before she stinks up the whole house. lol

Pictures...finally!

Ok, so I am a month behind, but I finally took Emma to get her 2 yr old pics done last night. It wasn't a very pleasant experience. The girl had no idea what in the world she was doing. She couldn't hold Emma's attention very long, I had to pick every background and every pose out. Pretty much I paid her to just stand there and click a button. When I was getting Emma's pic taken every month with Lynna, she would pick the backgrounds, come up with the cutest poses and she always had Emma laughing. Boy do I miss Lynna!! I was gonna get one pick of Emma and I together, b/c my mom wants one for on her wall, but the girl done had Emma so mad and everything that we couldn't get it. Don't get me wrong, there are some cute pics, but I just thought we could have gotten some better ones.

Update on the Prego...

Ok, so I haven't been able to get onto here for the last couple of days, blogger wasn't letting me post for some reason.

Anyways, I went to the new doc on the 30th and everything is great. I had an ultrasound and the baby is a whopping 2oz, which is normal. They confirmed my due date, July 29th. The doc seemed quite optimistic about my gestational diabetes. He said that I would only have to test my sugar about 5 times a week and that he thought I wouldn't need insulin at all. The way he talked, he would be totally surprised if it ended up being that I needed insulin. So, I left that day feeling great and super optimistic. I knew I would still have to go to the Diabetic clinic to get on the new diet, but I wasn't worried.

So yesterday I went to the Diabetic clinic. This appointment went quite differently then what I expected. They have me testing 4 times a day, not a week. I then asked them if it was a possibility that I would have to have insulin at some point. You should have seen the look on the nurses face. The way she talked, I will probably be on insulin shots by mid to late pregnancy. For those of you that know me good enough, you know that I HATE needles. So, now I am totally freaked out! I don't want to give myself shots, but I can do it for the baby. Whatever I have to do to keep this baby healthy I will, but that doesn't mean I have to like it. So, there is my sentence. Quite different from the one I expected, since my doc played it all off as it was nothing. I go back to the Diabetic clinic on Tuesday to see the dietician. She will see if the diet I am on is ok according to my sugar readings. At some point I may not even be allowed any carbs for breakfast, this will be the last step before insulin. So, for those of you that believe in prayer, please pray that I don't have to do the shots!! Anyways, I will update more when I know more.

So here is a pic of my newest investment. Not something I enjoyed purchasing and could have thought of other things to spend freakin $72 on, but it was a must.