I'm in a rut!

So, I haven't blogged in forever! Why you ask? I have no idea why, just haven't taken the time I guess. But I need to come on here and just vent, let some things off my chest.
Right now my struggle is with, myself. Be prepared, I'm gonna sound like a bad mom and trust me, I feel like one. I was some time to myself! I was a couple of days that I don't have to worry about anyone but me. I was to come and go as I please, sleep when I want to sleep, not change a diaper, not have to constantly be watching someone. I just want to be able to do whatever I want to do, whenever I want to do it. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids to pieces!! They are my world, but I've just been so stressed and overwhelmed lately. It is turning me into a person that I don't want to be. I'm quicker to yell, get annoyed a lot easier, lost my patience and I am gaining weight. I just want to take a couple of days and find the old me again. I want to be able to relax so I can come back and be a better mom and wife to my family. I just need to unravel! Ugh! I need to get out of this rut! A nice thing is, I think I am going to be able to have a little get away. A friend of mine is going to be having a baby soon and I'm going to go stay with her a couple of days to help her out. I'm really excited about it, b/c 1 I get some time away and 2 I don't ever get to see her so I will get some girl time!!
Ok, enough of that. This month on the 21st Matt and I will be celebrating our 5th wedding anniversary! We are gonna go away for the night and go to some wineries. I'm pretty excited. I get to reconnect with the hubby!! Time for just us, which those of you with kids know that time for you and your spouse becomes harder once you have kids.
I also started selling Uppercase Living. It's my way of being able to contribute to my family without taking a lot of time away from them. Plus it is some really cool stuff!! I have my first party tonight, I'm excited and nervous all in one!
Well, I could go on, but Chase is getting into everything. Gotta run!